Made Whole: Learning to Be Filled by Christ

Since giving my heart to the Lord, I’ve been on a journey of truly understanding what it means to be connected and attached to Christ. Over the past twenty years—especially since becoming an Adventist—I’ve experienced tremendous breakthroughs, uncovering the things that left me feeling full in the flesh but detached from the Lord in spirit.

As the Lord has patiently worked with me, He has slowly unraveled the surface-level struggles that masked much deeper wounds. One of the core issues He revealed was temperance, specifically in the area of overeating. And if you know me, you know…I can eat.

The Root of Overeating

Growing up in a military family, I was essentially taught to overeat. That belief, combined with a deep sense of emotional detachment, left me constantly unsatisfied. As I began to address the underlying emotional and spiritual issues, my behavior began to shift. I truly believed I had overcome it.

But recently, in a quiet moment of reflection, I confessed to the Lord:
“I’ve never truly felt filled up. I don’t even know what that feels like. I know the right things to do. I want to do the right thing—but I don’t know how to feel full in You.”

And then, the Lord spoke so clearly to my heart:
“I can fill you up.”

What the Lord Revealed to Me

Here are some of the truths He impressed on me:

• Being filled up isn’t about what you do—it’s about who you are in Me.

• It’s not about being good enough or performing well.

• It’s not about outward behavior to gain approval.

• You don’t have to do anything to be filled.

• You don’t have to earn My presence or My filling.

• I will not take it away based on what you do or don’t do.

• I can fill you up in every area.

• It’s not about how much you do—it’s about who you are.

Wholeness Over Behavior

That stopped me in my tracks.
Who am I? Could it be that simple? Am I really that valuable to You, Lord?

I wrestled with that truth. I’ve always believed I had to do something to earn love, peace, or approval. But in that moment, God simply asked me to believe that He alone could do it.

The Woman Made Whole

This reminded me of the woman with the issue of blood in Mark 5. For twelve long years, she sought healing from physicians and spent all she had—but was left worse than before.

Her breakthrough didn’t come from striving, spending, or trying harder.
It came when she reached out in faith and touched the hem of Jesus’ garment. In that moment, Jesus told her:

“Daughter, your faith has made you whole; go in peace and be healed of your affliction.” (Mark 5:34)

That word—whole—hit me deeply.
She didn’t just receive physical healing.
She received spiritual restoration, identity, and peace.
She was no longer the woman with the issue—she was a daughter.

Breakthrough in Temperance

Since that conversation with the Lord, I’ve experienced a breakthrough, especially in the area of temperance. He revealed that I was still overeating, even though it looked better on the surface.

The behavior had improved—but the root was still there.

He showed me that:

• My body doesn’t need bulky foods.

• It needs peace, rest, and surrender.

Christ’s Example

Christ never needed food to be filled.
In John 4:32, after speaking with the Samaritan woman, He told His disciples:

“I have food to eat that you know nothing about.”

His sustenance came from doing the will of the Father and being in communion with Him. That concept always seemed out of reach for me—until now.

Living Filled

It’s become:

• Easier to say no

• Easier to walk away

• Easier to let my body and mind adjust to a new normal

Why?
Because I’m no longer trying to fill myself—I’m letting God fill the deepest places of my heart.

My Encouragement to You

Don’t focus so much on the behavior. Focus on the root of the behavior.
When the Lord starts unraveling the issues in your heart, He can bring healing to every area of your life—even the ones you didn’t realize were still wounded.

Here’s what I want you to hold on to:

• Your relationship with God isn’t about what you do—it’s about who you are.

• “Before you were born, I knew you.” (Jeremiah 1:5)

• “I created you in your mother’s womb.” (Psalm 139:13)

• “You are fearfully and wonderfully made.” (Psalm 139:14)

• “Daughter, your faith has made you whole.” (Mark 5:34)

• You don’t have to earn what He already longs to give—Himself.